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I've had some struggles over the years. I think I missed my anniversary here on Newgrounds, whatever. It's not like I cherish myself THAT much or anything. But OVER the years I've realized that the more I get into being something, the less I get doing it. I'm not sure why.

I've tried to piece if this has to do with my shitty reputation on the interweb. Long story short, nope. It's just that everything revolves around money, connections, time, and patience.

Well, over the years, I've BATTLED for my money - lost numerous and decent connections, lost a lot of time and spent a lot of time with really nothing, and I've been more patient than an asteroid in space. I wonder when things will go my way.

But see my entire life is just tunneling. I know not to give up but it feels like such a great idea to give up all of this stuff, all these friends, and just my 'self' entirely. Life is stress to me. It's not relaxing. I don't come home to a loving and sweet girlfriend, I don't have a good job, I do what I don't want to do, I'm in a place I don't want to be... nobody has my back, nobody is really listening.

It eventually turns into, "I'll make them all listen."